Monday, November 17, 2008
Mmph.
Well, my one friend is now helping me with at least... motivation to eat. So, I'm slowly getting better with it. I don't know what's up, because even tho she has anorexia she never experienced anything like what I'm going through. Still, it's a start. I did drop ten-twelve pounds in a week, but I don't think I'm losing as rapidly now.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
It Just Happened
How odd.
I had been sick for a while and had other RL stress, and stopped eating.
Food was just disgusting, and I was hoping it was just a phase, people who are sick always experience some loss of appetite.
In the process I lost 5-7 pounds. I was happy, but unsatisfied. If I could bring myself to throw up, I would. OTOH, I don't want to ruin my teeth, or lose my hair. And sometimes you die before getting skinny when it comes to bulimia.
Since then, I have barely ate, and once I am 100 percent well I'll be exercising as well. I found that drinking orange juice on an empty stomach sucks, maybe all the citric acid. Milk does wonders tho, solid enough to satisfy, but it's a liquid so I don't feel so bad.
Yesterday I had one tall glass of milk and then waayy later at night decided I should eat at least one thing solid. I tried to eat four small chicken strips, but after one and a half, I had to throw it away. Such a shame too, I think that was the last of the organic ketchup.
I am thinking about taking some pills to lose a pound a day, I just hope it doesn't come off my chest of bum. I want to lose it around my waist and thighs mostly. I will see what I look like at 140 before doing anything drastic.
I had been sick for a while and had other RL stress, and stopped eating.
Food was just disgusting, and I was hoping it was just a phase, people who are sick always experience some loss of appetite.
In the process I lost 5-7 pounds. I was happy, but unsatisfied. If I could bring myself to throw up, I would. OTOH, I don't want to ruin my teeth, or lose my hair. And sometimes you die before getting skinny when it comes to bulimia.
Since then, I have barely ate, and once I am 100 percent well I'll be exercising as well. I found that drinking orange juice on an empty stomach sucks, maybe all the citric acid. Milk does wonders tho, solid enough to satisfy, but it's a liquid so I don't feel so bad.
Yesterday I had one tall glass of milk and then waayy later at night decided I should eat at least one thing solid. I tried to eat four small chicken strips, but after one and a half, I had to throw it away. Such a shame too, I think that was the last of the organic ketchup.
I am thinking about taking some pills to lose a pound a day, I just hope it doesn't come off my chest of bum. I want to lose it around my waist and thighs mostly. I will see what I look like at 140 before doing anything drastic.
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