Monday, November 17, 2008
Mmph.
Well, my one friend is now helping me with at least... motivation to eat. So, I'm slowly getting better with it. I don't know what's up, because even tho she has anorexia she never experienced anything like what I'm going through. Still, it's a start. I did drop ten-twelve pounds in a week, but I don't think I'm losing as rapidly now.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
It Just Happened
How odd.
I had been sick for a while and had other RL stress, and stopped eating.
Food was just disgusting, and I was hoping it was just a phase, people who are sick always experience some loss of appetite.
In the process I lost 5-7 pounds. I was happy, but unsatisfied. If I could bring myself to throw up, I would. OTOH, I don't want to ruin my teeth, or lose my hair. And sometimes you die before getting skinny when it comes to bulimia.
Since then, I have barely ate, and once I am 100 percent well I'll be exercising as well. I found that drinking orange juice on an empty stomach sucks, maybe all the citric acid. Milk does wonders tho, solid enough to satisfy, but it's a liquid so I don't feel so bad.
Yesterday I had one tall glass of milk and then waayy later at night decided I should eat at least one thing solid. I tried to eat four small chicken strips, but after one and a half, I had to throw it away. Such a shame too, I think that was the last of the organic ketchup.
I am thinking about taking some pills to lose a pound a day, I just hope it doesn't come off my chest of bum. I want to lose it around my waist and thighs mostly. I will see what I look like at 140 before doing anything drastic.
I had been sick for a while and had other RL stress, and stopped eating.
Food was just disgusting, and I was hoping it was just a phase, people who are sick always experience some loss of appetite.
In the process I lost 5-7 pounds. I was happy, but unsatisfied. If I could bring myself to throw up, I would. OTOH, I don't want to ruin my teeth, or lose my hair. And sometimes you die before getting skinny when it comes to bulimia.
Since then, I have barely ate, and once I am 100 percent well I'll be exercising as well. I found that drinking orange juice on an empty stomach sucks, maybe all the citric acid. Milk does wonders tho, solid enough to satisfy, but it's a liquid so I don't feel so bad.
Yesterday I had one tall glass of milk and then waayy later at night decided I should eat at least one thing solid. I tried to eat four small chicken strips, but after one and a half, I had to throw it away. Such a shame too, I think that was the last of the organic ketchup.
I am thinking about taking some pills to lose a pound a day, I just hope it doesn't come off my chest of bum. I want to lose it around my waist and thighs mostly. I will see what I look like at 140 before doing anything drastic.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
150's
This morning I was 164.5, and tonight I am 157.4. I ate a normal breakfast, which is rare for me, and I don't hurl or anything.
It was probably me being sick in bed for so long, I just spent 1-8 sleeping. But I've done that before and had nothing so drastic. I must of had a hell of a lot of water weight, ya know. Yay, being sick has its perks.
ETA
My mom said she doesn't think it's all water weight. Helpful, helpful mom.
It was probably me being sick in bed for so long, I just spent 1-8 sleeping. But I've done that before and had nothing so drastic. I must of had a hell of a lot of water weight, ya know. Yay, being sick has its perks.
ETA
My mom said she doesn't think it's all water weight. Helpful, helpful mom.
Monday, September 8, 2008
EDNOS
You're fat, but you're bulimic.
You're anorexic, but you'll never be a size 7.
You have your period uninterrupted, but you haven't had a normal sized meal since last month.
You see others who can work it, who often share many of the same physical traits as you. You hate yourself for having the very things you love about them.
You're EDNOS.
You're anorexic, but you'll never be a size 7.
You have your period uninterrupted, but you haven't had a normal sized meal since last month.
You see others who can work it, who often share many of the same physical traits as you. You hate yourself for having the very things you love about them.
You're EDNOS.
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